4 12 2008

What makes us hurt?
The deaths of those we love. The lies and deceits of those we loved and trusted undeservedly.
Why are our hearts so vulnerable?
Only those who are true, honest and full of love can be hurt
Why do some people want to live forever?
Only those who cannot feel want to do so, and they are already dead.
Who can endure this forever?
No one can, and that is why death is a blessing, not a curse
Should we still look for love?
I really cannot say anymore

What hurts more? Being alone, unloved, and nobody to give your love too? Or taking a chance and give your heart, trust and love, and be deceived?
I think the latter

What happens if you don’t love?
If you don’t love, you will eventually die inside, like the others. And then you’ll want to live forever.


3 12 2008

sadness smells like

dying leaves in autumn

light is dying too


Don’t fear the Reaper

1 12 2008


Listen to this video, while reading the lyrics

here are the lyrics:

All our times have come
Here but now they’re gone
Seasons don’t fear the reaper
Nor do the wind, the sun or the rain..we can be like they are
Come on baby…don’t fear the reaper
Baby take my hand…don’t fear the reaper
We’ll be able to fly…don’t fear the reaper
Baby I’m your man…

Valentine is done
Here but now they’re gone
Romeo and Juliet
Are together in eternity…Romeo and Juliet
40,000 men and women everyday…Like Romeo and Juliet
40,000 men and women everyday…Redefine happiness
Another 40,000 coming everyday…We can be like they are
Come on baby…don’t fear the reaper
Baby take my hand…don’t fear the reaper
We’ll be able to fly…don’t fear the reaper
Baby I’m your man…

Love of two is one
Here but now they’re gone
Came the last night of sadness
And it was clear she couldn’t go on
Then the door was open and the wind appeared
The candles blew then disappeared
The curtains flew then he appeared…saying don’t be afraid
Come on baby…and she had no fear
And she ran to him…then they started to fly
They looked backward and said goodby…she had become like they are
She had taken his hand…she had become like they are
Come on baby…don’t fear the reaper


I don’t fear the reaper

You can classify this post as ”current mood”

And yes, I’m back to black

A Cormorant in the City

24 09 2008

Cormorants are rare, but there it was; a cormorant sitting next to the pond in front of my house. Basking in the sun. It took off, flew a few rounds , and then disappeared over the rooftops.
Today the Autumn has begun. The weather is cool, the wind has turned cold, and suddenly the leaves have started turning yellow and falling down…
But most of all; this indefinably different atmosphere, the unique sweet smell of Autumn, like nothing else.
I love Autumn.
It also means another year is close to ending.
Anther year of pain, hopes dashed, love lost, and more pain.

I wish I didn’t have to stay here…
I have lost my wings a long time ago.
I wish could fly to another world,
like that cormorant.

Women and the white house

14 09 2008

I want to make absolutely clear that I am a feminist! I am a woman, and I am way more intelligent, more tough, a lot stronger, and a better fighter that most of the male losers I have the misfortune to meet.

Women càn suck. And be really stupid too. I can admit to that. Which is why I have to post this rant on why nobody should vote on a candidate for presidency because their running mate happens to be a female!
To consider Palin a good reason for voting Republican, just because she is a woman (something I seriously doubt anyway) is just too brainless to be true, and if women vote for McCain just because he choose a creepy running mate who happens to be female, I will have to stop being a feminist, but accept Male Chauvinist Piggishness, as my new creed in life.

Please, Americans! Vote for your new leader on the grounds of intellectual considerations, and not as if it’s just another American Idols-show!

You may wonder why, as a Dutch woman, I care or should think it my business to comment on the American election. Frankly I wouldn’t care. It should not be my business. But unfortunately, as America insists on putting their claws into everybody else’s business, and making a big mess of everybody else’s countries, I dó care. It is my business! It is everybodies business!
Not only do I care, but as the choosing of an American president will have repercussions for éverybody else on the planet, I think we should all have a vote!

Anyway, Palin.

Palin is not somebody who’s going to be good for women! So women don’t vote for her! Nor men!
According to Palin America shouldn’t second guess israël’s measures to defend itselve. Just support them without thinking. As America has been doing all along.
And of course with ”new leadership” (a democratic president would mean new leadership. McCain would mean basically the same leadership! ) means America has a legitimate right to defend itself with a ”pre-emptive” strike. As the one in Iraq, which we all know was definitely necessary to keep all these instruments of mass-destruction that were collected and made in Iraq, off our doorsteps.

She is not good for your children either. Amongst many other shortcomings, including the freedom to abort even when raped, she thinks creationism should be taught at schools instead of the theory of evolution.
Now anybody who can’t see that not only is evolution a fact, but also remarkably well described in the bible, but somebody who truly believes God is The Divine Pathetic Practical Joker and placed dinosaur bones ready to be dug up to test our faith, Should néver be given a post of any responsibility.
She shouldn’t even have been allowed to breed in my opinion. And of course she has five kids!
She is a liar: As a Governor she supported the ”bridge to nowhere” at 389 million dollars, but after she got the money, she changed her opinion, as she is so happy to repeat, but she did keep the money, to use on other (some equally brainless) projects.
So you may think it’s no big deal to set up somebody like Palin a heartbeat away from the white house, but I have no great trust in that a seventy-two year old geriatric with a history of heart-disease, wouldn’t snuff it in the first year of office, making Palin President. Does anybody really want that???

I can go on and on about her creepy convictions, there is enough dirt on her to be read on other websites, go and read.

Listen well to this interview; Palin doesn’t get any further than parroting and quoting the wrong excerpts, and is apparently stuck in some sort of cold war anti-Russia hype. You check out her speeches: she has only one!

Luckily not all Alaskan women are as stupid, and have been organising a rally against Palin. A radio host has had the bad manners, and lack of decency, to read out the phone numbers of the organisers, with the incentive to call them and let these women think how ”you feel about them”.
So much for democracy, and being a free society. As Palin likes to point out. read here

Women are naturally less competitive than men: Palin and Clinton address the nation
Update: This video has been banned!

To make sure you will understand not all women are dorks, do check out this video, It has nothing to do with the election, but everything to do about intelligent, strong, and courageous women.
And I would like you to pay attention to her message at the end of the lecture: because that is what we should aim for!
We should try to spread sweetness and light, and to help us in that goal we should not vote for intellectually stunted individuals merely because they happen to be women.


Check out this video with a lot of cool banners made in anchorage

Seroxat, Prozac and Depression

3 07 2008

Heeey, interesting news! All these bloody anti-depression-pills don’t really work! Check this out.

The treatments that do work

* Exercise: Helps some people with depression. Douglas Adams, author of The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy, said running helped him cope with depression.
Reading the Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy helped me with depression

* Friends: Talking through your feelings can help in mild depression with a friend or relative or in a self-help group.
Aka: blogging?

* Cognitive behavioural therapy: Teaches you to challenge negative thoughts and feelings of hopelessness.
Riding the recumbent

* Interpersonal therapy: Focuses on relationships and problems such as difficulties with communication.
Uuuhh, huh?

* Counselling: Helps you think about the problems in your life and find new ways of dealing with them.

* Antidepressants: Increasingly seen as a second-line treatment, if exercise or talking treatments do not work.
The Tarq, and medicinal Chocolate

Just to make this clear, my version of the best anti-depressant is: The Tarq! Hence his nickname ”Super-Prozac”

Very addictive, serious side-effects, dangerous accidents waiting to happen…
But no Anti-depressant can be improved upon by my Super Tarq!


12 04 2008

This, my dear readers, is the image which will greet you when you enter my house. I am not dull, so guess what…

I am useless at housekeeping. I am never finished with my work, and housekeeping comes third after Work, and Pets. And with my recent injury I have been incapable of performing some household duties anyway. Although there is very little I can’t do now, I’m seriously behindhand.

I do love a neat, clean house, so if the mess disturbs you; I will be only too happy to show you where I keep my impressive array of seldom used cleaning appliances and materials.

I have, in a burst of enthusiasm, brought this great book on housekeeping. It is written by a mother and daughter team, Marja and Liny, who are Paragons of Perfection. I find that very depressing, but I want to improve myself, so I got the book anyway. They have a television show where they help people get out of the mess and show us many handy, clever, and old fashioned household tricks. My biggest fear is that they show up on my doorstep! I have already tried their trick of cleaning silver cutlery and it worked great!

Dumb Blondes

8 03 2008

Today it is international women’s day. And I haven’t been hearing how women are intelligent, nurturing, loving and gifted, but I’ve been inundated with all the injustice women have to suffer, and the disinterestedness of men about it. So what should I do? Write a scathing post on how the unequal treatment of women should STOP! Like NOW! ???

Should I put up a list? like how women get raped by the thousands and nobody gives it much attention? How they are mutilated, so their men don’t have to fear that they might enjoy sex, or do it with somebody who’s better at it than them? How misogynist scholars of ALL FAITHS, (except wicca) twist and change the message of their holy books just so that they don’t have to fear women, and can suppress them?

No, I’m going to take my usual approach and tell you all a good joke.

The fact is: I am sort of blondish, but I can still take a good joke when it’s coming to me. I know a lot of stupid ”Dumb Blonde” jokes I really enjoy. For example, when I’m depressed, (happens sometimes) I may dye my hair dark brown, so as too match my mood. My brother calls that: ”Artificial Intelligence” LOL

But not today; I’m not in that mood.

Today, I want some more revenge!


”Revenge is a dish best served cold”

Klingon proverb

So, here goes:

Three Beautiful Dumb Blondes walk through the forest on a sunny afternoon. Deep into the forest they meet with a Fairy-Godmother!

”Ooohhh”, the Fairy-Godmother said: ”You are such Beautiful Dumb Blondes! I have never seen three such Beautiful Dumb Blondes!” The Dumb Blondes smiled beautifully and dumb.

”Because you are such Beautiful Dumb Blondes, I will grant each of you a wish!”, the Fairy-Godmother said.

The first Dumb Blonde said immediately: ”Oh, I want to be even more blonde!” And Plooof!: she was even more blond!


The second Dumb Blonde thought for a moment….:”I want to be even more beautiful!” And Plooof!: She was even more beautiful!


The third Dumb Blonde thought for a very long time…”What is my greatest asset?”, she thought, ”What gives me the most succes in life?” ”Yes! I want to be even dumber!”


And Ploooof! She had turned into a MAN!!!!!!


Beautiful angel of death

1 03 2008

But not painted by me, but by a guy called Carlos Schwabe. As Shahrzad mentioned: the angel of death should be beautiful.

I always really liked this one as a kid.


And the really cute Death, according to the writer Neil Gaiman.


The Dutch And the Olympics.

17 01 2008

The coming Olympics are in China. I admire Chinese culture, I cook mostly Chinese, and I love Chinese martial arts, Art, Calligraphy, everything! Eating with chopsticks is the most cultured and elegant way of eating in the world.

The Chinese already faked their own antiquities when the Greeks were still creating ours. That’s Culture for you!

What I don’t like is their current government who’s most evil, criminal disregard for the environment and human-rights ranks with the very top of evil demonic leaders today. And this government has managed to gain the coveted position of being the organisers of the next Olympic Games. How paradoxical.

So, when I heard something on the radio that apparently there was some talk about boycotting the Chinese Olympics, I was pleasantly surprised! The Dutch; the most spineless mollusks of the European Union, are actually growing some calcified bone-matter? Excellent!

Turned out to be a complete scam: There was some sort of ”meeting”, or ”talk” and off-course we’re going to the Olympics! Can’t let those other nations go off with some of the gold medals that should be ours! And naturally we’re going to have big celebrations in the ”Holland-Heineken-House” (What is it with alcohol, why can’t people celebrate without alcohol?) All this nonsens about the most horrible sufferings the Chinese people are going trough are a whole different issue, and has nothing to do with the ”purity” and ”friendliness” of the Olympics!

I hope they get no medals at all, and will all get busted on their doping.

And, yes, I’m still depressed!