I have been thinking about blogging a lot lately. To be honest, the ridiculous numbers of visitors I get, all blurkers, freaks me out. I get like 500 a day and I don’t even blog regularly. And there is the weird clicks I get on ”women dress and religion”: every day 120 clicks! Why? Where are they coming from? I can’t find out via the stats-page.
And there’s the real weirdo’s out there, the people hiding behind false internet personae. Making up unbelievable stories about their life and accomplishments, the mental vampires trying to suck you dry, always angling for support and compliments while giving nothing back.
Luckily there are also some very real friends coming out of blogsphere into the real world 🙂
But lately I am wondering: what am I doing? I started this blog when I was completely invalid and bored and getting a lot of fun out of reading blogs and also learning a lot, and connecting with people all over the world, also fun, and I wanted to be fair and show myself as I was getting more outspoken on other peoples blogs.
But I am better, and need to work hard again, and why am I spending time writing about my thoughts. Because that’s really what this blog is, a sort of twice-weekly look at what’s going on in my brain. But is this all? Because I am really and foremost an artist: not a writer and essayist. I think it’s time I focus on different subjects, like my art, and positive thinking.
So I have deleted some personal stuff, and protected quite a few others, and a very, very few people will get the password to those.
If I haven’t written you a love-letter you can bet you won’t get the password.
And while I will continue to pour some stuff out now and then, I am from now on putting my energy in my art and am working on an art-blog. I am also staying away from blogs which host serious weirdo-commenters. I need positive vibes in my life, Anybody who wants to share positive vibes is welcome, otherwise they get kicked out. And I’m not going to look for weirdo’s on other blogs. If I don’t like the company, despite of the blog, I’m keeping away.